a reflection about the word "SORRY" / Sebuah Renungan Untuk Kata "MAAF"

Hours are shown the number eleven, when I sit lay down in the living room. Of course my wife and son Aisha was already asleep lelap.Tapi why Aisha's door still open? I was stunned as he stood at the front door of Ayesha's room. Ayesha asleep at his desk, hands his right still holding a pencil and it seems he wrote something in a book There he wrote and a mug of coffee. "This child unusually, drinking coffee," I thought.

I picked her place to sleep. Take care of the desk messy, but before I closed the book I wrote want to see what is written Ayesha. I was stunned for a moment tulisan2nya reading, it turns out all stories about myself. Until I read the last three sheets really touched my heart.

In the first piece she wrote: "Today my father did not accompany me to the bookstore, maybe father could not leave his job. I understand with kesibukanmu father. " I remember a few weeks ago asked Aisha to the bookstore, I remember once talking with a plain style. "Daddy this afternoon there's no activity," said Aisha when I'll go to work. "What is love," I replied. "My father would not accompany Ayesha to the bookstore?" "If the father is not busy this afternoon will try dad yach accompany you. " "Thank you, father," said Aisha, a face so very happy as she kissed my cheek. I smiled to see acting funny and adorable.

In the second piece he wrote: "Today my father is not so again accompanied me to the record store, and I'd love Sulis heard his song and play it in my room when I 'm alone so I do not feel lonely. Actually I want to pick a mother but I'd love the company of his father. But lagi2 busy dad. " And I remember back when Aisha was never invited me accompany him to buy cassettes. If he wants to take him always talking sepertiini, "Dad this afternoon or not busy Dad later evening event? "The language was very polite I think so I was not able to say no even though I sometimes can not fulfill her desire.

In the last piece he wrote: "Today and for umpteenth time, fathers can not accompany me. I've been asked the father to the market this evening when his last day there are night markets in komplekku and I've promised the same pack Mamat if I would buy a doll that had been offered Mamat afternoon when the pack passed in front of my house, I told Mamat pack if I would go with dad to the evening market and I'll buy a pack doll Mamat. Because the father is still Mamat pack would not back already sold it. Pak Mamat Ayesha forgive yah. Tomorrow morning will be waiting in front of Aisyah home and apologize to Mr. Mamat if Aisha could not go to the night market. This time it was Aisha who will go first apologize, usually a pack of Mamat always apologize if 've seen me in front of the house waiting for a magazine that I had ordered. He always said, "sorry yah neng Mamat pack late." Whereas I think Mr Mamat not too late just me waiting too fast. Seeing that I've been waiting He pedaled faster. When I asked why Pak Mamat's always sorry when you do not pack Mamat have one on Ayesha. "Yeah neng did not want to pack Mamat neng disappointing Aisha told you yesterday when the pack Mamat nganterin pagi2 orders before neng neng Aisha go to school. Try if advent oversleep pack Mamat neng definitely disappointed, Pak Mamat not want neng, disappoint people because of the disappointment it would cause injury in the liver. Neng and hard to heal unless we're sorry with sincere people we have kecewakan ".

It reminded me of the same father, my father never said sorry me, or maybe because my father thought I was a kid or ah, I do not want to prejudice against fathers. Despite the fact I was very disappointed with my father but I not want to keep that disappointment in the liver. Even my heart is always open to say sorry dad.

I cried reading Ayesha, Ayesha I approach the the bed while I watched his face plain. Aisha sorry my dear father, it turns out you have a heart of gold. I did not Aisha never apologized for a never janji2 fill him. And I always thought he'd forgotten when I see early in the morning her face was so bright and always smiling. And turns out he was still remembered in tulisan2nya. Ah, for some how many strokes already existing sense of disappointment in yours if you do not forgive my father. Ayesha, the father will waiting to wake up to ask for your forgiveness.

--- To my dear child Aisha ---

Reflection: Sometimes we are embarrassed or reluctant to just just say the word "sorry" and let it be goresan2 lasting wound in my heart. Or maybe we often assume that they will forget it after several days. Then if you've done the same thing like me, never too late to apologized to people you've ever kecewakan. Do not ashamed to do the right thing even if it is your do to a child or friend, because they also have a conscience. And if they're still smiling you even though you've let them down you should grateful for that gift.